I began my first job under my new bussiness enterprise and this bucket was sad,
1990 camry J model. i gave the guy a deal. he supplied all parts and doo dads, 4 struts,brake pads, cv axles, flush Rad, flush brakes,change plugs.
$213.00 labor only
my labor rate just went up 45%
and I gotta go back! the spring i had my helper (my brother), jumped out of its seat and makes noise
FIRED! I hate nothing, dont htink I can hate, but his car is tring my will. the thing has a 20# can of bondo on the door! if you slam that door it might fall off and break your foot.
I do nice things for people, this fat single mother who barflys around my brothers apartments, needed brakes real bad, she has kids so, even just for their safety I did her a brake job for free. her car is a 93 or 95 sentra ok, this thing rides like a washing machine,sounds like a lawnmower, and has enough dirt to fill the bed of my truck. i have no idea what my point of this is but oh well dont like dont read it. karma thats my point i think??
It just sucks, Im sore, Im pissy,and i want that F***in car to die! who puts all that bondo on a door? BUY A NEW DOOR! s*** i can get a door for 19.00 at pick a part. and thats complete.
look, when i was in prison, i worked in a couple different shops, I befriended a lifer and we talked shop and I figured s*** this guys been in since i was 12 years old he earned my respect, so i let him into my world and he went and told his boss in the mill & cabinet shop i was a grease monkey, I built alot of s*** for this fair they have every year at the river in blythe, some of you so cal guys should know, I did the pnuematics and mechanical for the "pirates of the colorado" exhibit in 2007. I did it to show the world (or myself) Im not the monster they made me out to be, I f**** up. yeah I f**** up bad. and 13 years of law enforcment doesnt make up for it. they took my badge , they took my gun.
f** they even took my wife & son away from me, still! its real hard man, my wife is still faithful, and standing by me. my poor boy "the frog" he needs his daddy.
Hey, Im sorry to aire my dirty laundry on you all but i am a broken man, sure I got my stuff, I got a nice apt , car, familiy all paid for. but i also bear shame. that is the biggest burden of all.
I dont mind the names or labels its my own private hell I bestow on myself.
Nancy, my wife, she says IM too hard on myself. also alot of the cops, and other inmates and teachers said the same thing."your not a bad guy" they say "just made a mistake"
pretty big f**** mistake.
I did 3.5 years, but its a life sentence.
I guess Im just destined fail, oh and in support of the social D song...... yeah, i got a ball and chain. it seem the ca dept of corrections in its infinite wisdom decided to put big brother on parolees. so now i have a cell phone straped to my leg. 3 years this thing is going to be there!
anybody speak french? heres a lesson, the word "parole" means "TRUST" in french im told.
what kind of trust is this? its good and bad, saved my ass a couple times and ive only been out a month and 2 weeks.
I fully understand and support the need for these chingas, because Ive met people and heard stories that make me sick and want to kill. I said earlier that I am incapable of the feeling of hate. I can not hate. but, some of the people I met in prison should be strung up by their balls. and those are the ones that make "you" the average public, feel the way they do about everyone in my perdicament.
I swore i would go on a "one man" crusade to change the public view and so far one person at a time I am succeding. I had cops tell me "your ok" and just average joes say the same.
hell, the detective that took me in didnt want to do it. atleast thats the impression i got.
If Im not the monster I feel like then why do I feel like I am?
you know i once had a lady tell me on another message board, you truely are a "force to be reckoned with" i never understood why she said that but i wa on that board everyminute i had free. just like i am now "venting" and tring to ansewer the question that bugs the s*** out of me everyday.........WHY?
I always disliked that word, just hearing it makes me cringe.
well, i might hit 60,000 letters so Ill stop. its 8:52am on sunday I need a beer! or church.
Thats another rant all together. I belive in God, just not church. not my forte' Im a recovering catholic so. yeah on that note.
feel free to PM me to talk s*** if you like or offer help if your so inclined.
be good to each other
adios,
Mark